Its not deliberate… honest, just things have taken a change for the worst or better.
New year, old me, my new years resolution was meant to be 4K, I.e. 3840×1260… ha ha. Ok, ok. Jokes aside, my mental health was near to collapse due to feeling rather lonely (despite having my family around me) and missing out on a few things, so I tried to combat it – it also went very wrong, in that I got a gift card scammer trying to ask me for gift cards, which I wrote up about and will publish at some point.I spoke to a few others and got a similar response, I was thinking about getting hold of an “introduction agency” with steep fees which I can understand, try something like £1,600 and you are right, so put it off until I got some more money and was looking at my finances this year to think “without affecting my savings too much and my goal, will I be able to afford it?”.
Problem one, this month was bad financially due to all the one off costs of holidays, I had to pay for three of them, one of them in Ledbury, UK which was very last minute and trying to avoid the worst of the snow (the dogs were really confused about it), one is coming up in Devon and Cornwall and another one in Wales where I’ve stayed before – I recommend that site to anyone. So, I delayed that idea for a bit. My bank then dropped a letter through about my savings rate dropping, (fantastic!), so contacted them to see how to maximize my savings to their full potential. Not really much I can do but lock a large sum in a Cash ISA. So that delayed that idea.
Problem two, unrealistic goal. I mean, what I plan to do does mathematically work out, but in the real world? I don’t know! It all depends on my debts and overtime. Further delaying it, so I can eventually get my own house.
So looked at a dating site, went through random profiles, one stood out more and I kept avoiding it thinking “this will never work, there is no way she’s interested”, so while going through the lowest point with women and getting lower, I got to 2 profiles, liked or disliked them, third one would be my ex –shut the app down. Did it again, my ex turned up on the third profile, shut it down, third time, 2 profiles and my ex again, so l liked her expecting to get blocked – nope we matched. So I messaged, mentioned my changes in life from the last 5 years of knowing her, started talking on whatsapp and what I missed. Yeah, its going well. So that is that. Talking a lot, but realising she does nights is a problem as at the moment as we would hardly see each other. Oh we are friends at the moment.
So I then go from being in contact with 3 ex’s to 4 ex’s, I never thought that would ever happen.